Thursday, April 7, 2011

Movin' on

The "Red Witch" made her appearance yesterday, so I'm definitely not pregnant.  Part of me is relieved. I don't know how ready I really was to deal with what would have inevitably caused enormous stress.  Even after that 1-2 day pregnancy, Tom and I have unofficially decided to pursue adoption if we are not pregnant by the end of the summer.  I just don't know if I'm cut out for pregnancy anymore.  And I don't want to be in a continuous state of stress until I deliver a baby(if I ever do)'s just not healthy.  The amount of money spent on specialists and medical bills will eventually add up to whatever we have to pay for adoption.  I just know that we are meant to be parents in one capacity or another.

Of course, these are just my ramblings as of right now.  It's completely possible that I will change my mind 100 times in the next few days.  For now, I'm going to work on becoming a healthier me, relaxing, spending time with friends and family, and finishing up school (and going on our cruise!!!!)

Saturday, April 2, 2011


I tested this morning (13 DPO) and got a negative result.  If my "monthly friend" doesn't come by Monday, I guess I'll be calling my OB for an HCG blood draw.  I'm okay with the negative result at this point, but still a little confused.  The good thing is, I'm not feeling depressed about it and am ready to move forward.  I have a tiny glimmer of hope, as a friend of mine let me know that she didn't get a positive result until she was about 6 weeks pregnant!  We'll just have to wait and see...

Today was nice, spent a lot of time with sister is visiting with her kids while her husband is out of town, and it's always great to have some time with her.  Tom and I went to Wally World this morning and I spent about a half hour in the makeup section, which I always enjoy.  I was excited to see that Walmart carries Hard Candy makeup now.  Maybe they have for years and I've just been oblivious.  I'm kind of a makeup junkie and am always buying it, but not really using it.

We had a nice family dinner and now we're settling in to have "adult time."  Probably just watching some TV or movies and relaxing.  Sooo glad it's the weekend :)